This morning, I went for a run! Yes that is right I ran, which I don't love, but I do love my beating heart and arteries. I was trying to get out and clear my head. There is so much out of my control which is not abnormal but my body is taking a toll. An update at this time would be better if we knew anything. Oh, the pit in my stomach!
Our social worker called to tell us that we are being considered for a 6 month old girl. The risk is high but worth it. It has been two days since the call and the pit in my stomach keeps growing. I am praying, Yes, I am praying!
Do I guard my heart to prevent pain or do I dive in head first and allow myself to imagine our family with her? As those that know me well can contest, I am diving in and allowing my heart to be vulnerable to breaking! The pit grows and grows as we wait for a call. This may be one in a series of situations before we are blessed with a child. It could be one of many broken moments! We have chosen to not tell the boys until we are chosen. And then we must decide how much to tell them! This is a delicate time for us as a family and we are learning. Sometimes not so gracefully! Thank you for praying and caring for us and the next Kuhl member. We hope to remove the pit regardless of the social workers decision and just pray that God would place this baby girl with the right family!
The photo above is of Tim! Just a little visual for how we are feeling!!!!
4 comments:
Your family is in my prayers!! God has a perfect, little, precious girl, set aside for your family to love. I can't imagine the Patience God is teaching you through this experience.
Thanks for the update!!
I am giving you a big hug right now...
Tim and that wonderful shirt! :) I'm praying for you two. I can't wait to meet your daughter, whoever she may be. I am always inspired by your honesty and your courage even in the face of this anxiousness!
We are all praying for you & Tim! I can't even imagine what that would be like, but I know God will give you guys the calmness you need to make the right decision =). Not to mention that you may be that perfect family for that little girl!! Keep us all updated!!
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